Think Good Thoughts

These are my questions.

I’m up, i’m down, i’m up i’m down. 

Life goes well, then it turns around. 

It feels like I’m lost but won’t ever be found

so tell me what’s the purpose of that sound…

Or rather, that phrase…

Call them words if you like, but I know when I hear them my body gets tight.

“I love you.”

What’s that mean?

Sorry for asking it just seems so obscene, to think that this “love” is what may come from dreams.

If it’s a word, then I get it, but soon I’ll forget it.

Or maybe I’ll feel it then lose and regret it. 

I’m just wondering, what does “I love you” mean?

Is it really more than the words that you say?

Or are they just words by which girls with the hearts boys play?

These are the questions that confuse me, since the concept is still kind of foggy, you lose me. 

I hope I’m not coming off as ignorant or unaware

It’s just, everyone says that “love is in the air.”

But I sure can’t feel it. 

Then again, if love is something you have to feel to understand,

it’d be impossible to explain it to this loveless man. 

“The end of the road

is just up ahead,” said the young boy, a burgeoning man really. 

Little did he know, it wasn’t the end; the road forked off in many directions and his real journey was just beginning. 

So I’m sitting here

With this mc-asshole named Tony Messina-Doerning, and we’re watching a short series called, “The Kennedy’s.”

This is what my evenings have come to.

Awesome.